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Robert W. Richards

Robert W. Richards (born 1941) is one of the most prominent and best-known illustrators of the United States. Richards grew up in the industrial town of Sanford in the U.S. state of Maine. He worked for many stars of Show Business (Frank Sinatra, Lena Horne, Anita O'Day, Tony Curtis, Peggy Lee), drew album covers and posters, which proved to be seminal. He also illustrated for the fashion industry. His clients include brands such as Chanel, Valentino, Yves St. Laurent.
As part of the bourgeois wing of the gay rights movement of the 70s, a decade-long love began to "Adoniss" of this scene, the porn stars. Richards captured the fleeting beauty of those modern love gods in countless drawings and interviews. These works provided a stir in the exhibition "Gods of Erotica" in the Leslie-Lohman Gay Art Foundation SoHo.
As a draftsman and portraitist, the artist puts himself naturally in the background, his works are known better as his person. A look at the man Richards provides the film documentary about Peter Berlin. Richards drawings and photographs from all career stages of Berlin are valuable historical documents that capture the "golden years" of the american gay movement in the 70s. In the photo book "Allure" Richards numerous highlights of his erotic illustrations of male ideals.

I feel bad

I feel a little depressed today because of some minor or bigger incidents - sl and rl
My best female friend in sl told me I should write it here, what upset me .... then I would feel better.

I wonder, am I emotionally overwhelmed?
Or makes me the Christmas time more sensitiv?
I will lose next year a loved one - my father. When I think of it, it drives me tears in the eyes. He is ill with cancer and his doctor says that he will not celebrate the next Christmas. Of course, my family was ready on Christmas Eve to be together. But how the devil would have it, the weather has not cooperated. For me it was impossible to get out of my town. It snowed almost continuously for days and I needed with a friend more than an hour to make my car free from the snow. The road was too slippery even with winter tires. And hell, no bus, no train in use. Noone of the family has reached my parents yesterday :-(
Sure Christmas is not everything, every other day is just as good...

I wonder, am I emotionally overwhelmed?
Or makes me the Christmas time more sensitiv?
Well  a very good friend rl and sl sent me an email on the 30th of November with the message that he have cancer - lung cancer.
"Don’t worry about the operation.  According to the lung specialist it will be a recovery operation. But it is a heavy one: They will remove +/- half of my right lung and I hope I will be ok after that. Today I was told that they will operate on me on the 7th of December.  I guess that if all goes well I will be chasing boys in SL after 7 to 10 days in the hospital ;-).   (I wonder if I will have enough air to run after them in real life too )."
You see? Today it is the 25th of December - no sign of him... neither sl nor in rl.

I wonder, am I emotionally overwhelmed?
Or makes me the Christmas time more sensitiv?
But as I read the following in someones sl profile yesterday I could scream.

MASTER?? HAH!!!
To all of you guys who have the word "MASTER" anywhere in your name, or identify yourself as a "Master": You are f-ing pathetic. You are deeply disturbed and disgusting. I don't know why you have the need to want to dominate and subjugate others, but I for one feel sorry for you. You obviously have something wrong with you, and you have to control others in order to feel good about yourself. Probably you have a very small penis and are therefore insecure of your masculinity. Most likely impotent too. I have to admit that as a group you mostly amuse me. I love laughing in a "Master's" face. Please know that I look at you with both comtempt and a degree of pity. You are botched and defective.

Sub=SubHUMAN
To all of you guys who have the word "Sub" anywhere in your name, or identify yourself as a sub: You are as bad as if not worse than the "Masters". Why anyone would want to be dominated by another person is beyond me. Why were we given a sense of SELF if only to give up our free will to another? You are a disgrace. A disgusting wretch. You should be deeply ashamed of your willingness to be dominated and subjugated by the predators you call "Sir". You are beneath my notice and if you IM me you will be met with nothing but contempt.

I will leave these two simple statements in the room - no further comments.

I wonder, am I emotionally overwhelmed?
Or makes me the Christmas time more sensitiv?
I feel really attracted to someone in sl for a couple of weeks, but he knows nothing about? I have thought as long as I wear the skin of my dream man it can not happen to me - noone can top my dream man. But I was wrong. The way he talks to the people in group chat has made me aware of him. I listened to him for a while, enjoyed his short effective commands and statements which reminds me to a forgotten - also missed feelings  - power through words. Sure I was curious and checked his profile. To my surprise, his profile is very similar to mine...

Yesterday I droped him a Christmas gift.

[18:22]  Me: Good evening Mr. ... Sir!
Just a little gift for a great man Sir, as a token of my admiration and worship.
Merry Christmas Sir.
[18:22]  He: o,O
[18:23]  He: well thank you!
[18:23]  Me: :-) you have not seen it Sir
[18:23]  He: looking
[18:23]  Me: smiling
[18:24]  He: very nice - thank you
[18:24]  Me: :-) your welcome Sir
[18:25]  Me: a pity my bed time now
[18:25]  Me: hope you enjoy Christmas Sir
[18:25]  He: Thanks - and you too
[18:25]  Me: good night Sir
[18:25]  He: g'nite

As I logged off my heart feels happy in a way only because he has accepted the gift but as I layed in my bed and thought again about it my joy shrank suddenly. Well you can not know why because you do not know what was the gift. It is a Christmas stocking in a nice gift box. That is what he have seen. The damn stocking - nothing more. But what is a Christmas stocking when nothing is in it? I have constructed the Christmas stocking, that he has to touch it three times 1. for the particles, 2. for the Christmas song and 3. to recieve the gifts and the Christmas card. Well, I think he will never know what he got from me. The gift is lost somewhere in his inventory or probably he deleted it. Why I think so? Well, note the times in our conversation....   too short. I may be wrong, but no smile also...   He was not really happy - was even a Christmas stocking.
I am angry about myself - really.
And I am embarrassed to ask. It would sound as if I would assume him superficiality, no?
Maybe I think too much.

I hear into myself...

I feel bad.

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Goh Mishima

Goh Mishima 1984 - 1989 (born Tsuyoshi Yoshida) specialised in what everyone seems to call “Yakazuza porn” although many of his men have fewer tattoos than genuine Japanese gangsters. Given the Japanese predilection for exploring every fetish imaginable someone had to cover this area. His name, of course, alludes to writer Yukio Mishima and there is a lot about his work that Mishima would have enjoyed. The Tom of Finland Foundation has a small selection of works.
Note: The Tom of Finland Foundation biography page says Goh Mishima died three days before Emperor Hirohito in “1988″. Since Hirohito actually died in 1989 the date what is listed here.

 

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All good

It is a bit of time between now and my last post and I would try to summarize in short form.
My business in rl is doing extremely well. I have decorated my shop very cosy - rustical, country style. It smells like apple, cinnamon and pine - real Christmas scent. My customers seem to like it, as well as my hospitalit and they love to come over for a cup of coffee and a small talk, and really they do not go without buying something. That is great. Since the 1st Advent I open my shop at Sunday for 2 or 3 hours also and every customer get a little bag with cookies made by me. Fortunately, a couple from France come last week for shopping to me. They visit me 2 - 3 times a year and have bought this time 2 high night stands from Biedermeier.
So far rl is all right, except my father's health.



Well and my sl.... a bit of everything.
I have seen it is not worth waisting the time waiting for a foto partner. So the erotic art I have pushed back for first. I concentrate more on building modules for the "Magic Chair" and the "Primbie House" "(more on this later).
The "Magic Chair" is now no longer "Magic Chair". I renamed it to the name "Magic Machine"... lol  ...sounds for me more interesting. I have already built 5 modules and tomorrow I will probably finish the 6th module.

And for those who llike to see the original buildings while listening ambient sound here is a free :-)  tp..

But please note the following after you have used the TP you will found yourself on a small island.

The round thing in front of you is the "Magic Machine".

Select midnight before you sit on it.
Then touch it and choose "warp" from  the menu.
Choose the high and select the module you like to see.

Close your eyes :-D
\o/  enjoy!

Aside from a few strange experiences and encounters, that are almost part of everyday life in sl, I met a couple in a sandbox. And after we rezzed our stuff to show it each other, we got the idea to sell our stuff together in one shop. The idea is to build nice things from all kategories for less money. But meanwhile it seems that they have lost their interest, almost every contact fails for some reason. So I will do it alone... The Christmas time started and I discovered that I really find enthusiasm to let myself drift with the music while creating nostalgic and noble Christmas stuff and decorations. 

Well, I have created a shop and a blog.... if you like to see my works please visit the "Primbie House" blog.  I sell my items on sl marketplace.

Yeah and I have met a really nice person. I roam around with her, mostly hunting. She is a lil needy but not intrusive. I dont know why but she gives me the feeling to protect her and sometimes I feel as I would speak like a father with her. Yeah and she really likes my works and is delighted when I show her a new creation, what motivates me even more, to build better and more unusual things. And of course she get everything for free what she want. Yes, it develops to a really good friendship without any kind of obligations.

Sure it would be more nice if she were a man.... because sometimes even if she is there I feel alone.

My dear friend Alpha was only once in sl after our last meeting, rl commitments make it impossible for him to come online atm.

I miss you much Alpha :-)