Felix D'Eon

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Awesome

Thank you, my holiday was great, but this is not the subject of my post today. 

The reason is an awesome dream I dreamed last night. I do not know what this dream means and frankly I would not even know it ... simple because this dream gives me a liberated and happy feeling. YESSSS!

Are you curious to know what I dreamed? Then read on...

The first part of my dream I was aware of because I have dreamed the same dream about 2 months ago, I just could not remember many details.

I found myself in a sort of cave, very deep, perhaps 200 feet deep. It looked like a kind of mushroom spawn - in the middle of which ran a column from clay or earth-to-ceiling. The entire cave was lined with roots, moss, vines and other plants with little leafs, hanging down and wildly growing.

Well I wandered through this huge cave, through a soft-covered ground like wetland. - in search of him - my hero (who else lol). 

I felt inner stress, hectic, aimlessness, sadness, disorientation...

Many scantily clad men walked past me. They seemed busy, no one cared about my presence. I wished that someone would ask me what I'm looking for and / or offers to help me. For some reason, I did not ask for help.

Suddenly, I realized that perhaps a fashion show took place, but further down in the cave. 

I wanted to know who is the designer of silks that were there presented but instinctively knew it may be just my hero. So I was asking a guy who walked past me, wrapped in white silks. He pointed in one direction with the words "over there". As I turned my head the only thing I could see was a part of red silks, hovering around a corner. I ran after the man with the red silks as fast as I could through some corridors and archways that were hidden by vines but had lost sight of him. 

The following part, I do not remember when I dreamed this dream for the first time, 2 months ago.

I felt despair rising in me and suddenly I saw myself on a wide, well-covered by soft moss, staircase. Up at the other end of the stairs one of my closest SL-friends, Astral, was waiting for me. When I reached him, he hugged me and I began to cry pitifully. He wanted to know what had happened but I was not able to tell him and why I was crying so much. He stroked my hair, spoke well to me and tried to calm myself down. Then when I opened my eyes briefly, I saw a narrow passage that was hidden by creepers. I freed myself from Astral's embrace. I was 100% sure that this was the right way to meet my hero finally. But I came to the surface and suddenly found myself on a road. When I looked around I realized that it was here just plain concrete. I knew that I am in reality, while in the inner part of the world "Second Life" seemed to be.

I knew that here I'll never find my hero and that I must return again somehow. But how, when everything here is hard concrete? Again I was seized with a feeling of despair ... but suddenly I felt the ground shook under my feet and right before my eyes opened a huge crater.

Here the dream ended 2 months ago, I woke up because I was afraid to fall into.

Last night I was not afraid.
I watched as a kind of monster lifted up from the vast crater, formed from earth, clay, stone and moss - accompanied by a loud din like hell. I felt that if the monster has reached the peak of its growth, it will again plunge into the depths. Thereby the crater will be closed again - perhaps irrevocably.

Just before it reached its total height, I turned to the monster and screamed with all my might "take me with you!" I took a run and jumped into the deep. During the jump, I heard me calling: "please do not let myself hit so hard."

Before impact I woke up.

I felt completely dazed and stayed in my bed for a few minutes. I realized that I dreamed the same dream some time ago. I looked at the clock - I had only slept for 2 1/2 hours. 

On the way to the bathroom I remembered my dream in detail and noticed that I have gone a step further this time. I could not hold back my tears.

As I calmed down, I wondered to stay up or go back to bed. I decided to go back to bed, my sleep was not long and also Klaas is in my shop today.

And really, I dreamed a sequel...

I was actually back in the cave. This time I found myself sitting on a sort of bed that was covered with moss what felt pleasant cool against my skin. To my right were two men on the bed, kissing each other full of passion. They looked very beautiful as they kissed. Their well-toned muscular body close together. Shiny tanned skins, both dark hair and mustache. The man who was lying bottom was pretty much my own image, but I was not. The man on top was my hero.

I watched them for a while. I felt no jealousy.

Suddenly my hero ended the kiss and rolled over on his back. Now my hero was lying on my left side while the strange man remained on the right side. Neither of them was angry because of my presence. Then my hero turned to me. He smiled at me happily and said , "you are finally here." And even the strange man seemed happy to see me and smiled at me happy.

I felt an absolute determination to do everything, what my hero wants from me, also to share him with this strange man. It seemed as if my hero could read my mind. He hugged me passionately and I cuddled into him and I wished he would kiss me so passionately as the man to my left. Then he stopped the hug and said something to me I did not understand because he spoke very quietly and quickly, and it was in English. At the end of his statement, he asked me "yes or no?". I answered "yes" on the assumption that he had asked whether I want to stay (lol). He laughed out loud and looked at me with sparkling eyes. He asked me whether I had understood his question and I replied "no, but I thought yes would be the right answer to his question".

Suddenly the other man turned to me. He said with my native language that he likes me and that he know I am a nice guy. He stood up and asked me to follow him. We left my hero and walked  through a tunnel that led into a clearing. I followed him up a small hill, which was limited by a high wall. The wall was covered with long vines with small fleshy leaves and small white flowers. He asked me if I knew this plant and I replied that I had seen this before somewhere. He taught me that it is very good weed and asked me to smoke a joint with him. But I had no interest and said to him that I want to keep a clear mind...

I woke up at 10.06am CET.

I felt happy and free from any worries. And in my overzealousness my first thought was to log into SL to tell my hero about my dream.

I did not - of course.