Monday, October 31, 2011
Again
I wonder if I have nothing better to do than regularly pick up me a slap from him?
Yes I can not help myself... I asked him again - that was a week ago yesterday.
It seemed an opportune time to be (hmmm for me).
I was hopeful to get the chance to make him happy but as expected, the answer was no again :-(
He said at this point in his life, he is better off alone.
That he is busy with all kinds of things, and he do not have time for someone in his life.
But even more that he would not deserve my care and devotion.
Really I wanted to hit my head on the keyboard...
For me he represents safety, strongness.... things that I admire.
Hmmm methinks that he is maybe afrait being hurt...
However I thought I can deal with his no easier because of the numbers of requests - I am already prepared.
But I was wrong, the short conversation with him fills me on one hand with happiness but on other hand it makes me more thoughtful.
Luckily, I have finally found my passion to the right time... at least as far for my creativity.
So since one week I am pritty busy with building on new products for a second business in SL what gives me no time to think.
But at least I could not help it to give him a Halloween gift.
Just to delight his heart a little and to put a little smile on his face.
The fact to know that he have smiled about the gift makes me feel happy.
Yes I can not help myself... I asked him again - that was a week ago yesterday.
It seemed an opportune time to be (hmmm for me).
I was hopeful to get the chance to make him happy but as expected, the answer was no again :-(
He said at this point in his life, he is better off alone.
That he is busy with all kinds of things, and he do not have time for someone in his life.
But even more that he would not deserve my care and devotion.
Really I wanted to hit my head on the keyboard...
For me he represents safety, strongness.... things that I admire.
Hmmm methinks that he is maybe afrait being hurt...
However I thought I can deal with his no easier because of the numbers of requests - I am already prepared.
But I was wrong, the short conversation with him fills me on one hand with happiness but on other hand it makes me more thoughtful.
Luckily, I have finally found my passion to the right time... at least as far for my creativity.
So since one week I am pritty busy with building on new products for a second business in SL what gives me no time to think.
But at least I could not help it to give him a Halloween gift.
Just to delight his heart a little and to put a little smile on his face.
The fact to know that he have smiled about the gift makes me feel happy.
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